Tuesday, March 1, 2011

Whats your definition of Love?

Someone asked me that today.. well in a round about way-


Heres my ex husband Emilio... and my god daughter Karina. Emilio was my life for 8 years. He was my first everything... my first love, my first sexual expeiance, and my first relationship I went after full force.

Im from America.. my father is from Canada... my mother is from here... I never spoke any other language in my home other than English- and a little French when I was really young. I learned the spanish language in less than a year so that I could speak to Emilio's family. That is love.

Emilio was an illegal Immegrant- we went thru HELL getting him to be a legal resident in this country because I couldn't stand living in fear that he could be taken away from me. That is love.

Emilio decided after 8 years being together and 6 years of marriage that he didn't want to be with me anymore, he cried when he finally told me the truth. I couldnt stand him in the house anymore so he slept in his truck for 3 days while he gave me my space to cry. That is love. To know when you hurt someone, and know that you need to give them time before they let you back into thier life. See, Emilio still loved me- and still loves me to this day. I'm his best friend, and I never did anything to hurt him. AND he knows that. SO, as much as it hurt him to hurt me- you do fall out of love with someone, but that doesnt mean that you dont love them anymore. You can love without being IN-love. AS much as he didnt want to be my husband anymore, he did want to still be my best friend. AND he is.

Love is staying with someone and not wanting anything bad to happen to them even tho they hurt you. Emilio is in the middle of applying for citzenship- and we decided to still go thru this as a team even tho he will eventually have to live his life without me in his team at some point. But for Today and Tomorrow, and maybe the next day... I'll be with him. Right beside him as he goes for his citzen test, gets sworn in, and becomes an american.

There's a couple definitions... chew on that- get back to me

1 comment:

  1. I teared up at that.. I didn't know that Chelle, I had no idea what you had gone through.

    Hugs you tight..

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