MIchelle's weight loss journey.... PEOPLE DONT GET IT!
So I've been doing my new life for alittle over a month now.. I feel great! I've had my bumps in the road here and there, but for the most part things have been pretty easy. I know what I have to do, and I'm doing it... the problem is the WORLD AROUND ME!
example... my mother- she knows im dieting she knows im trying really hard.. why would you bring me double decker tacos? she has no idea- none... AND WHY DID I EAT THEM?! urg michelle u know better than that. the good thing was i worked out so i worked it almst totally off but still who wants to have to workout cuz they suck on thier calorie intake? not me! i want to work out to get me under my calories everyday.
example... my ex husband- he means well he really does. we dont have that hateful type or relationship most ex's do. he loves me like a friend and i do to him as well. hes a great man, he just wasnt the greatest husband... but all in all we get along great- and the other night (last night) i had all my meals planned out. i ate my breakfast, my lunch, my dinner, and i was planning on going home after we went to the store and i was going to work out. Is that what happened?? NOOOOOOO it wasnt. he decided he wanted to go eat- well I already ate! how could i do this? so my plan was i'll go and have some water and just hang with him while he eats thats a good plan right? NOOOOOPE. we get there and he goes to order gets his food, the waiter goes to me... i say no im good with water... then here comes emilio.... "pollo no vas a comer?" (aka: hey you arent eating?? and he calls me pollo which is chicken in spanish. im guessing its cuz im white- he's called me that since we were dating i dunno it stuck i guess) so then he tells the waiter "just bring her the healthiest thing on the menu." DAMMIT EMILIO noo! even the healthiest thing on the menu is bad! i already ate! URGG so i ate this chicken and brocolli thing which really wasnt bad it was 380 calories for the whole meal but thats 380 calories that i went over!!
so this whole week ive been going over and/or exercizing to at least meet my calorie intake for the day and i had some waay better plans for myself. i must learn to make these people understand i know what im doing and im doing it- please dont mettle... i know u want to help but i dont think i need all that much help- im going to be better next week i know it. and i know im going to be better today too. its just the scale that scares me. friday is my weigh in... please dont be disappointing lol
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